Tuesday, June 1, 2010
Kiyan's reflection post
Final Reflections – April House
Our blog assignments allowed me to 'channel' -- if you will -- assess and examine these lives in a manner that was personally meaningful and relevant. Initially, I didn't expect to enjoy the project, but during the course of our readings I found myself deeply immersed and curious about the figures we encountered. I really wondered who they were and how they lived. The selected narratives, stories and accounts deeply resonated with me and I often contemplated how many stories had been lost and how many countless others yearned to be told.
I still remain curious and interested in the myriad intersectionalities that complicate and confuse matters of identity construction and construal. The human spectrum is so full and robust that it is short-sided to evaluate an individual or a people solely in terms of a singular, isolated dimension.
My favorite blog submissions were the two regarding Helga's Father/Helga and Sally Hemings/Annette Reed-Gordon. These particular assignments invoked intensely compelling sentiments that I attempted to express in another’s voice. In generally completing the blog assignments, my primary concern was that my estimation of our subjects’ feelings and perspectives were fairly accurate and justified. Sometimes it was difficult to shrug the essentialism of my 21st century worldview – but I really tried to fashion someone else’s world through their own eyes.
Thanks for a fabulous class and inspiring a new personal interest worthy of insightful exploration.
Reflection
Jacobson to Morrison
Matthew Jacobson
Chestnutt to DuBois
Thomas Jefferson to Sally
Sally,
I find myself living in a grand contradiction of sorts, that no matter what I do I cannot seem to escape. I confess to have a physical aversion toward dark-skinned Africans. I do not like them, I find them rather disgusting, yet for some reason I find myself hopelessly attracted to you. Yes, I know that you certainly look white, but at the same time when I look at you the thought of your black race cannot be completely erased from my mind. I should be repulsed. I should be disgusted. But I am not.
So too do I find the thought of race-mixing to be an unpleasant one. The amalgamation of black and white produces a degradation to which no lover of his country, no lover of excellence in the human character, can innocently consent. Yet at the same time I find myself bonded to you and the children we have created. I cannot abandon you or them. I will take care of you all to the best of my abilities.
Unfortunately the black in your blood is omnipresent. I could never leave my wife, and regardless of her I could have never been with you. And to be honest I cannot say that I love you. Yet at the same time I cannot be certain that I don't. This is all very perplexing to me, but I suppose that's how things are meant to be between us. Weirdly, I like it that way.
Thomas
Questions:
1) Why did it take so long for a book like this to become written? Has it taken all these year for the American people to become comfortable acknowledging that a white founding father as legendary as Thomas Jefferson could have had a real relationship with a black woman? We have certainly seen various examples recently of illegitimate black children. John McCain comes first to my mind (although his rumor proved to be false), but there are definitely others that I am blanking right now.
Reflection
We started off with the story of Ellen Craft. At this point I was concerned with the fact this this memoir, written by William craft, was passed off a memoir of both his and his wife's journey to the North. Ellen Craft seemed to be given less agency than the tremendous role that she played in their escape. She was also described almost solely through the role of the color of her skin and her physicality or beauty, rather then as a agent of movement and change in the Craft's life.
Next, in Benito Cerano, I was concerned by the issue that the whiteness or blackness of a person was correlated to the sympathy that person received. In retrospect, this is clearly an obvious point, but this issue was particularly striking to me in this story. The issue that in our history people were able to allocate more sympathy to those with lighter skin is still baffling to me. It seems so bizarre and so cruel that something as frivolous and uncontrollable as the color of one's skin could have been the cause of such a disastrous institution.
Furthermore, this artificiality in the construction of race was so bluntly and poignantly portrayed in Puddenhead Wilson. Such a clever way to portray the strangeness of this institution!
In the Jazz Singer, Playing Indian, and Matthew Frye Jacobson's piece, the issue of passing as "white" by denigrating other races like Blacks and Native Americans was a truly new concept for me. I had never considered that this notion of creating self as NOT the "Other" is a way to not be the "Other." Later on, I realized that using this notion to show that European immigrants became white after having overcome prejudice downplays the intense prejudice that African Americans and Native Americans faced in comparison.
I've really enjoyed the conversations that we've had in this class and the ways in which the movies have tied into these concepts. Thanks to the class for really helping mold and challenge my ideas about race in America.